A friend of mine steered me a whole ago to a few places. One being The Prosperity Game, which opened a few "Thought Doors". I ended up exploring BYRON KATIE (The Work) which I quite apparently need further "work" on. The epiphany she had in the 80s was that our thoughts create our reality. In her own words ""I discovered that when I believed my thoughts, I suffered, but that when I didn’t believe them, I didn’t suffer, and that this is true for every human being. Freedom is as simple as that. I found that suffering is optional. I found a joy within me that has never disappeared, not for a single moment." If you have a chance to watch her Google videos I found them very, very good and inspiring. Definitely will be an ongoing process for me and I'm sure it is for everyone who chooses to undo their tangled wires.